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Tuesday, April 26, 2005 01:14 a.m.

:x I'm an emo.

Emporio quit the game last March :x.. Kumeko a bit earlier that Ensan. Moriken made a new LS Inosense (Innocence is the correct sp right..?) I'm thinking of quitting the game too, it's getting kind of lonely but I want to do a lot more before I quit /sigh.

I'm kind of envious/jealous of some people. Maybe I'm just tad too much lazy :x It's most likely my fault and it makes me sad. Funny, I don't feel like doing anything anymore. It's sad :x to have lost interest in a lot of things. It's sad not to know what you want but know what you don't want :x I just want to sleep.

Friday, December 31, 2004 04:32 a.m.

I'll try making a new page :3 FFXI themed.. I'm thinking of remaking my blog as an FFXI one >_>.. I'll go see what I can do about it XD.

I have really enjoyed my whole year of stay in GoodNessOne ^^ Two have already moved on in that little time :( Darkir, who ask Ensan to give me the pearl. He already sold his account to somebody, last time I talked to his char. Kumako, 2nd one to reach 75 in LS.. :( 'Twas sad, Kumako seemed to be always online then. Maybe she'll come back but perhaps not. Last and only picture I had with her ^^

Hope we'll see each other in game some day.

Tuesday, October 19, 2004 03:10 p.m.

It's not going to work. I go there everyday and my hatred for it grows each passing day. I'd rather not work there. Could I? Can I just pack and leave..? Unlock chains of any guilt or remorse and just leave? I've tried so hard these past few days.. to like it.. but nothing has really changed.

I want to.. forget about that place. Learn other things. Live a normal life, far away from the horrid place. That place is hell in disguise. A place where they torment people in exchange for something that sucks away your entire life.

I don't want to go on living full of regrets. Instead can I go out and search for my treasure, my dream? Wake up in the morning and hear birds chirping instead of cars honking? I want to look forward for a brand new day and not despise it, hide from it like a scared cat.

Wednesday, September 1, 2004 09:59 p.m.

GAAAWWDD.. I forgot the stupid password of the blog and spent 15 minutes trying to figure out what it was.. -_-

I'm becoming lazier and lazier as we speak. I have officially been neglecting my work : I wish they would just fire me so I could get over it.

Friday, June 18, 2004 12:23 p.m.

... My hard disk went *drrrng..*.. :( Died yesterday and I need to replace it. *Looks at wallet and cries*

Tuesday, June 8, 2004 11:21 p.m.

Let me rant oh please let me rant..

I hate Garlaige >_< No it's not the bad puller (maybe partly.. but..) I'm really getting fed up the way people there organize a pt >_< They pm you, make you go all the way to the area, and after you arrive.. disband 'coz they can't find enough members/all of them leaving at once.. gaaaah.. I'm starting to hate this place more than valkurm/qufim/kazham combined >_<

Case 1 Bad Puller gets on the nerve of every PT camping by the stairs..

Got invited to a PT (me being the last member) So we set out to garlaige, two says it's their first time.. I didn't mind, we all had our first times :x.. big mistake (I'm not quite sure if it was also the puller's first time but..) the puller fell down the hole.. *oops.. I fell down a hole* Of course he got aggroed and killed by bats/scorps whatever's down there.. he said he's going back to HP and I thought that it was the best idea.. Maybe I should have said that since he didn't warped back..

Our whm then volunteered to raise him.. after a few seconds, we hear another *oops i also fell down the hole* ok >_< now 2 most likely dead people.. Somehow the whm was able to raise the puller (drg by the way) but since it WAS NOT SAFE.. the monk had to follow them :) yes.. three dead people.. only they didn't die, they were able to leave there with.. 10 CITADEL BATS BEHIND THEM??? killing virtually 7-8 people I think :)

Can you guys imagine the smile on the people's face after that happened? it was like.. an atomic bomb was dropped at garlaige.. The PT leader, sensing the WARM and FRIENDLY surrounding that would await us if we go back suggested to lvl at serpent grotto.. I had quite enough for the day so I declined. Others didn't want to either so we all went back to our mog house with 0 exp gained in citadel.

Pumpkin Pie = 300g; Chocobo ride = 600g; Exp Gained = 20 (they were killing an evil weapon when i arrived at sauromugue)

Case 2 The replacement WHM

Somebody PMs me "do you want a pt in garlaige?" I say yes :) (I was waiting for one) He said I'm going to replace him as whm, fine no big deal :) So i hurriedly chocoboed my way to citadel only to find.. the tank leaving :) naisu.. they are going to find a replacement :) and then the blm has to leave.. yesh.. and so the pt disbands because they can't find anyone else ^^ *Thanks for the invite guys, would you mind if you pay for my chocobo?*

Case 3 The hey let's pt in citadel I have people coming

I was waiting for.. 2 hours for a PT.. since it was JP prime time, I WAS EXPECTING to be in the last line of their pick (since I didn't have erase nor can i understand what they're saying) And then this drg PMs me (notice? another drg messing up my life.. I'm beginning to hate them) ask me if I want a PT. I said sure ^^ and asked if there were others in the PT. He replied that there were 4 others coming.

So I walked to garlaige (since others were still on their way) He asks me to put up invite sign (which was up by the way -_-) and invites me. He invites another person, a ninja.. Maybe a little bit before that, a brd PMed me asking me to join PT. I was like :x.. gawd.. i wanna join this PT but.. it would be terribly rude to say no to that drg since I already said yes.. and there are already people coming.. So I said to the brd that I already have a PT and thank you for the offer.. The nin disbands from the PT for whatever reason that maybe and then he says "I guess he doesn't want to pt" I say "who?" he says "the nin" I went "oh :|" and he goes "ok see ya!" and then disbands..

let me put this in caps.. I WOULDN'T HAVE MIND IF I WAS NOT WAITING FOR 2 HRS TO GET A PT AND THAT SOMEBODY ELSE! ACTUALLY INVITED ME BUT I HAVE TO TURN IT DOWN TO BE FREAKING POLITE TO YOU! AND THAT IT'S ALREADY LATE AT NIGHT AND I CAN'T STAY UP TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER PT! AND THE FACT THAT YOU SAID YOU HAD PEOPLE COMING!! seriously.. DON'T YOU PEOPLE HAVE MANNERS???? FOOOOK I have never been irritated like this before..

I know I have my own shares of booboo :( Like how I forgot to bring food to a decent pt the other day T_T gomen minna.. I really didn't mean too.. and how I fell down the hole too since we leveled at the other side not by the stairs :x (at least I didn't have to bring a minion of bats when I got back up) sigh. but.. :( I'm just really depressed on how people can get so bad and why I always end up with them when I do try to be polite, nice and good (even if I'm not)

Monday, March 8, 2004 06:14 p.m.

There are times in your life when you feel you just want to quit.. this is one of them
There are times in your life when you start missing the past.. this is one of them
There are times in your life when you feel one is only remembered when needed.. and you guessed it right~ this is one of them ^^

I really enjoy this day off :) t'was feeling hot early in the morning (probably monday sickness.. :) so I called in sick. But alas, tomorrow is the start of another day.. of work. Though I partly enjoy what I'm doing, I honestly can't take the pressure, the.. how would you call it : the physical and emotional load of the work (err.. and the morality thingy load of it too) ^^ When i look at my fellow co-workers and see them work with much gusto, I can't help feel that.. probably.. I'm still a childish, self-centered and spoiled brat who runs to her mother when in pain :( and it saddens me a lot. I try to console myself thinking people have different threshold but then.. if they can do it why can't I? :( am I really that inferior as to not be able to take the load? *sigh* I guess I have a love and hate relationship for this job : but the hate part is currently outweighing the former

Saturday, February 28, 2004 12:42 p.m.

err.. just testing.. want to change the layout soon but don't have time : Currently very busy with work, and my free time usually ends up with me and my ffxi or animax.. sigh.. v_v i can't wait until the busy season is over.. (x_x)